Life's been up and down the last few months. Mostly down. I found another job after quiting and finished out the semester at UNCW with about what I expected grade wise. I re-applied and was re-admitted to RPI and am sitting in a study lounge currently writing this.
My life feels back on track but different. I feel a cloud of resignation in all my actions that hangs over tempting me to give in and accept my fate. I have. Kelli was distant for the summer, though she did come see me on my birthday. Things have changed. I don't know if I love her anymore. Regardless I know I hate myself for ever loving her and loving her still. Nothing kills the soul faster than killing a dream.
Other than that I spend my time in a daze. Days really are turning to weeks and I am adrift, not caring where I land.
Tune in soon for:
Tells of the frigid North
Fun Math
Costume Tips to Feel your Treat Bag
