mad. sad. bad. lad. dad. That's been my mood the last couple of days. Well the first couple at least. School and Work and Kelli wears a guy down. I've been having lots of headaches and sinus problems. I think as a direct result of my fucked up sleep schedule. Work blows. It's just highly inconvenient with classes and my schedule. Some days I feel like the walking dead. I'm looking for a new job. I'm hoping as a clerical person or something. My goal is 30 hrs a week or so and to clear 200 a week after taxes. Not a good time to be job hunting all things considered. Especially considering I have a relatively easy job with good pay. The hours are killing me though. I need the money though.
Move out scenario is still the same. I have nowhere to go and couldn't afford it if I did. Talked to my dad and he basically ran me around in a circle with you're better off at home aka its free. asshole. I blame him for NY. I wish I had taken loans and stayed at RPI now. I'm going back in march for a visit and my fraternity formal. I'm ecstatic. I miss everyone so much. The classes, the cold, everything. I invited Kelli to come as my date. She gave me a conditional yes then backed out the next day. She has some bs religious thing that weekend. She pissed me off royally. Not because she's not going but because she didn't just say she didn't want to. She's almost as religilous as me. I'd rather she said I don't want to go or don't think I should etc. I hate myself over her right now. I just want her to like me and have everything be work out.
I have been meeting girls at uncw. There's one in my math and old test class that I like. She doesn't make me feel alive the way Kelli does but she's nice, cute, and likes math. A perfect boring girl for me. It's all I want especially after seeing what happens when you let someone know how you feel. I was thinking about asking her out on a date. But yesterday I met a girl named Erin. She antiques me. She reminds me of several people rolled into one. I actually thought about her alot today after another chance run in since we first met yesterday. I'm nervous though. On top of that things with laura have been as wierd as ever. Somedays she seems really into m other days I don't know.
But fuck it, I've got work tonight and an assload of schoolwork to plow through.
Tune in soon for:
Valentine's day: It's gonna be awesome since I'm working the entire weekend.
Spring break plans since it's only a month away.
Tips to ace midterms and fly through exams.
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