Work Class. Sleep. Repeat. That's my life at this moment. I hate it. I'm dying on the inside. I only enjoy one of my classes the rest are just tolerable. I'm exhausted all the time and have started smoking heavier. Not a pack a day r even close but I smoke 2 or 3 times a day normally as opposed to my previous once or twice a week. I feel like crap and I think it's beginning to show.
Classes are boring and repetitive. Too easy. I don't feel like I''m actually attending school. Jjust showing up. Of course, That doesn't stop me from sleeping late and screwing up my first test in calc 3. Took it today. Not as confidant as I should be. meeh. Other classes are easy and suck. Old testament is static and doesnt seem to be going anywhere. American Nat'l goverment is random with no direction. It's okay only because I enjoy talking politics. My axiomatic systems class I enjoy but we seem to be stalling out and not going anywhere all ready.
Finiacial aid came through and it was a big number. 3400 or so. I was like sweet get a car, place to live, daytime hooker, etc. I got a car. I'm looking for a place. Then the other shoe fell. I lost 2 grand for the most bullshit reason in the world. It's a grant thats for NC students at NC schools. I qualify for it and my award orginally showed it. Here's the bullshit. Since I went to school elsewher freshman year and didnt go last year I'm not eligible. I need to qualify as a "new" grant reciepent having graduated in june 2008 or later. I don't get the money because I didnt get it before. If I had, I would still get it. Bull fuckin shit. Now I cant move out. I need to bad. Last night trying to study for a test proved it. My mom wouldnt stop blabbin about random crap. My step-dad kept bothering me and when I said I needed to study he informed that I thpught I was smart so I shouldn't need to. dumbass. That's why he's 46 and has nothing to show for it. Doesn't even own a car. I'm tempted to email my dad and just flat out ask for money to get an apt. or rent a room or something. I need a place to study at bare minium.
Kelii is still shittin with me. On and Off bull. I'm starting to get angry at her. She needs to relaize that I can't do this kinda crap forever. It's making me insane. But I got class. The good math one at least.
Tune in soon for:
kelli, laura, etc,,aka me not getting laid
Those test results
Stylin and Flyin tips for the ghetto gangsta
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