Does that tie come in a clip on?

Back to work today. Finished all the computer training to the surprise of management. Apparently retardation is standard issue and it normally wakes them weeks to complete the training. Took me less then a day. Soon Ill start full time and be rollin in the dough. Highlight of the day was meeting the soon to be counter part that will also due security. He worked in a prison for 30 odd years. First thing I heard him say, "does that tie come in a clip on?" He's anticipating scuffles that go all the way to choke holds of death. The GM looked a little perplexed, she thought he was joking. Gonna finish up at the roach villa tonight or tomorrow morning depending on my mood. Ill be done till the bug guy finishes after that.

While I was at work my phone went off several times. emails, unimportant and important calls, txt messages. One of them was from kelli. it was a simple " you okay?". After I got off I sent back Ive been better. I don't know what she thinks of me and this doesn't help. Half of me wants to forget her and the other half wants her to come running to me with open arms and a smile on her face. There was only a half hour of work left when I got the message so I didn't immediately get lost in my hopes dream and probable downfall. I waited till I was in the parking lot, sitting in the driver's seat, radio on low. Took 10 minutes to compose that simple reply. Thought about lying. Saying I was great, over her, ready to pick up where we left off. But I didn't, I hope I don't.

Fortunately, I finally though about another woman for the first time in a year and a half. I'm capable of saying that's a hot chick I should fuck her. But I have no desire to follow thru on it. To me, emotion and desire are locked together, inseparable in my mind and heart. SSo its a rare occasion when a girl pops into my mind that's not kelli. Its a close friend that I see every other day and crushed on all thru high school. It's tough. I think my brain is just filling her in every time I think about kelli to save my sanity, fool me into submission. I know its false or at least not a real love yet. After kelli messaged me my first impulse was to call her immediately. That's not the move of someone that's moved on.

I'm going to keep my options open. Maybe Ill find love maybe kelli will find me. maybe Ill get hit by a bus and this wont matter anymore.

Tune in soon for

Halloween Costumes..aka what slut did I convince to stand next to me so I look cool

Presidential Clothing: The move from unbuttoned shirt and khakis to the dark suit and power tie

Creative crafts to keep the kids busy and happy after school and on long car rides