Tuesday, December 16, 2008

We'll finish the night with drinking,..um dancing and drinking

Same shit different day might as well be the motto of my life. Christmas bullshit is bearing down on me hard. Presents. Family. Bull Fuckin' Shit. Mom is freaking out over money and empty tree. She always does. Apparently if there isn't X amount of dollars worth of Christmas shit under the tree it doesn't count and Jesus gets mad. wonder if he's pissed at the shitty birthday presents he gets seeing as he was born on Xmas and all. I getting everyone stupid stuff. Mostly dinner gift cards especially if I have a friend that can hook me up with some free ones.

Sunday was a long shitty day. I worked all night Saturday and got off 7 am sunday morning. I had to drive hour and a half to pick up my sister. I only did it cause kelli was suppose to be there too. But I left about 9 am so no sleep. Ride was pleasant on the way. Thru the backwoods where I live. Pleasant no major highways. Beautiful North Carolina countryside. Sister is retarded and annoying so not as nice a ride back.

Got a 2 hour nap before heading to my work Xmas party. It was a suck fest. Bad food. Mediocre prizes. Etc etc. I took my old HS flame. She looked good not amazing. I won a Victoria secret gift card which I gave her and a trip to a spa. She wants the spa trip and the way I'm feeling towards kelli at this exact moment she'll probably get it. Afterwards we went to a few places then back to her Apt. She started an awkward conversation though after we left. She wanted to know what guys thought of her sexually. I didn't know how to answer. To be perfectly honest guys don't. At least not desirable ones. Losers like me do but we don't count. I told her this was the moment in the evening that would be marked as the turndown. At her place coupla guys came to hang. All dudes of course. Boring basically. went home and went to sleep.

Texted kelli alot today. She's back home for Xmas. Asked me if I wanted to get dinner tomorrow night. I was like hell yeah. I asked what she wanted to do. Her response " I dunno but I need to get dropped at cara's after" aka she needs a ride to town. At the end of the conversation I called her on it. " would you have asked me to dinner if you didn't need a ride to dinner?". She just said she could find another ride. Then she goes on to make fun of me online later. I wish I didn't love her. She's done nothing for me. I'm her back-up the fail safe. She's my everything.

Tune in soon for:

Christmas, not all it's cracked up to be

Me, kelli, and the bottle make two tonight, kelli would ditch.

Holiday treats for those extra special nights

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